A Mama's Throughts

I will have to admit the last few days I have been thinking a lot about Nash's development. Some good and some bad thoughts... In the midst of everything sometimes it is hard to stay 100% positive.

Many times I find that we are on a bit of a roller coaster ride... Some good news and some bad.... Some ups and some downs. Some days I cope better with bad news the others. After beating myself up a bit I think... Reality check... Don't we all do this??? YES... We are human...

I just have to share some of my thoughts, cause I think they are important... I think someday Nash may or may not read the rambling throughts of him mama either think wow... she is nuts or there is some truth in the words and thoughts of his mother.

So the reality is this... Nash is now three.... He speaks some, but not what we call "normal." He sings praise songs all day long... Even waking up in the night singing... When he is happy he sings... When he is sad he sings... When he is hurt he sings... You will hear him singing... Holy Holy Holy Lord God Almighty; OUr God is an Awesome God, Amazing Grace; How great is our God; and Jump Jump for Jesus... He will sing entire verses... Sentences are hardly ever spoken, but he can sing. You ding him in his room laying on the floor or swaying to praise music. He turns on his CD's and just praises God. I think often... WOW do I need to be more like Nash... He is the one who has it right.... How awesome is his spirit to Worship God no matter what... It is truly amazing....

In the light of all this... I hear things like, he is not fitting on the age range of this cart, he needs to do this, why isn't he talking more?, why is he singing, he needs to do more more more. You need to work more more more....

My mind nearly blew up today.... We work and work and work. More more more. On the way home from running an errand, while Nash was with a sitter... I heard a song... Well part of a song... I was focused on developmental issues with Nash... What I heard loud and clear was something about... "Viewing others through the eyes of God." BANG... It hit me and tears began to flow. If I were to look at Nash through the eyes of God... I would see a good and faithful servant... I would see a kid who is far closer to God that myself and millions of others. I would see a kid who is a true example of Christ. I would see a miracle... I would see God and His love, peace, joy, patients, kindness, and goodness. I would see how we are suppose to live... I would see Christ.

Suddenly the flood gates opened... I thought if only the rest of the world could look at my child (God's Child) through God's eyes. They would not be so quick to judge him or place him on some chart or say he is not "normal."

Ahhhh if only I as him mother and could only continue to see him through the eyes of God. If only I could help the rest of the world see him through God's eyes then maybe just maybe they would accept him as a child of God and not a disabled kid. Because isn't it really we are the ones who are disabled????

Another week in the books!

We have been busy the last few weeks, which has been wonderful. Great to get outside and get some fresh air. This past week Nash rode in the St Patty's day parade with Randy Kuehl Honda and Miss Rodeo Iowa. He feel to sleep in his aunts arms ad then rode sleeping through the entire parade in his carseat. I was sort of bummed... I knew he would have loved watching all the people out the truck window... They were hooting and hollaring... Don't even know how he slept through taht and the firetruck we were following... He was out cold... He normally doesn't nap, but he decided to this day. We had a water pressure tank break in the basement. Water shooting everywhere so no water. We got up early and went to CR to take a shower at Angie's. Kaitlyn was excited about it, but it threw a wrench in Nash's day so he was a crab. Angie and Kaitlyn rode in the parade with us. Kaitlyn loved it!!

After the parade we loaded up the mini van and headed to Shriners Hosp in MN. Nash had a good report. We go back in five months to get fit for new braces and a walker. They feel it would be best for Nash to have a walker while he is in school. To give him better balance and not get knocked over.

We got home Friday afternoon... Just in time to have our water fixed and back on. We had a great trip to MN. There was an outdoor zoo that we went too. The weather was 65* so it was perfect. nash did not care about most of the animals that much, but shocked us when calling out the names of a few of them. He was more happy to be outside walking around. We of course avoided being close to people. Still a lot of stuff going around out there. Nash had a cold a week and a half ago, but did well getting over it. it was wonderful... A normal cold! Nothing that drug on for weeks. Three days and done. Yipee. Great job immune system! Praise God.

After the zoo we went swimming. Nash is a fish... He LOVES swimming. It is soooooo good for him. He now swims five to eight feet underwater. He moves more freely then ever when in the water. Well if the water is above 80*.

I will have to post some pictures, when I get them off the camera. Oh uncle Evan got engaged so Nash will have a new aunt Emily.

I better go finish breakfast for the boys... Nate and Nash just got up. Hurgry no doubt.

Related to the Blairs!

Nash definitely has a head cold. He is running a little temp and watching lots of videos. I asked him a little bit ago what he wanted to eat to make him feel better… He responded with “BACON… I want bacon please… thank you.” I thought WOW is he related to his Gpa Blair!